After a long winter, dare I say spring is upon us?
What’s been a struggle for me? Being able to sit down and write down everything. Usually the words come easy to me but in the late months, I have been struggling with finding the right words to express all that I have been experiencing. So as winter is finally behind me, here I am trying to sum it all up.
I have so many fantastic projects and operas ahead, it has also been overwhelming and tired along with having to work. I am truly living the New York 5-job hustle but having no regrets. While of course, I would love some stability, I am so grateful that my days are filled with different adventures but also this city can feel like the loneliest place in the world sometimes. I see my friends leading such different paths in life and it’s hard not to compare and wonder if I am making the right choices. On the other hand, I am proud that I am making my goals and dreams happen. Everything I have set out to do, I am have done. My NYC vocal studio is growing and I still get to teach some Miami students via skype. I am getting the opportunity to learn 2 beautiful operas and getting to live my life with no regrets. It’s all a Catch-22, right?
Life has a tendency to want to bring us down. You can find a reason everyday to let the negative overcome the positive. I have really been soul searching for the person I want to be and what that means within myself. I am trying to just really be thankful for all the opportunities given to me and knowing every experience in life happens for a reason whether I see it or not. I constantly push myself to strive to become better whether taking an acting class, dance class, or vocal lessons. Making new friends in unexpected places and experiencing new adventures. Getting lost in a city to find the place I was looking for all along. Trust me, I have days where I feel the world is crashing down on me and dreading the day ahead but it’s in those days where I find myself the most.
As spring begins to turn into summer, I am excited for what is ahead. I feel on the brink of something wonderful now just need to make it all come true.
“We cannot stop the winter or the summer from coming. We cannot stop the spring or the fall or make them other than they are. They are gifts from the universe that we cannot refuse. But we can choose what we will contribute to life when each arrives.”
– Gary Zukav