As one year comes to an end and a new one begins, I can’t help but reflect on everything and all the experiences I cumulated over this past year.
A year ago, I was ready to embark on new operatic beginnings after taking a hiatus. I was so excited and little scared to see what would be in store. While I am so grateful for every experience, every step was a learning process. I have met some of the most beautiful people while performing, and some of the most ugly. I have had some of the highest of highs, and some of the lowest of lows. Most of all, I have seen myself grow. Recognizing the things I need to work on and the things I will never change about myself.
The most important message I have allowed myself to understand, it is okay to ask for help and to know that I am not alone. In this career, it is easy to find oneself feeling lonely. I know what I do is not the usual profession/ lifestyle that my friends and family can easily understand but they are to always listening to me and just lending me their ear. I am also so ever grateful to my music friends who always remind me I am on the right path and understand everything I experience, as they do too.
I am so excited in this New Year to rediscover my love for music, as sometimes, that has gotten away from me. It took me a while to understand that it is okay to feel distant from your passion that can offer you so much but, so little at the same time. I decided to not pursue many auditions, as I needed time to regroup and decide my next steps as an artist. I needed to be understanding with myself enough to say it’s okay to take a break to refresh my musical soul. First the first time in a while, I am feeling re-energized and refreshed. I am excited to plan musical projects that I have wanted to produce and fortunate to have the support in doing so.
As the year is coming to an end, I sit here with my cup of coffee and smile on my face knowing that I survived another crazy year that threw many unexpected things at me but through it all, I grew and for that I am grateful.
As we enter a year of uncertainty and change, we need each other more than ever. We need to learn to be more understanding, patient, kind, loving and most of all, forgiving.