Hello friends! I am so excited to continue to share my journey with you. I will be addressing many issues through my blog and today I wanted to address something that is very important to me. My health. While being healthy can mean many things to different people, being healthy in my opinion is an overall emotional and physical state.
Bear with me as I go into some of my medical history. I feel the need to share with you as it helped to shape the person I am today. I am sure in future blogs, I will reference this topic as well.
In 2013, I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis (UC). As most, I had no idea what this meant. In medical terms, Crohn’s and Colitis is a chronic disease of the large intestine, also known as the colon, in which the lining of the colon becomes inflamed and develops tiny open sores, or ulcers, that produce pus and mucous. The combination of inflammation and ulceration can cause abdominal discomfort and frequent emptying of the colon. But here is what it meant to me:
Not being able to have physical control over my body meant losing myself. While I will spare you the details, let’s just say I no longer had control over my body. My condition had gotten so bad that not only was I barely able to get out of bed for months, but I was no longer able to sing, let alone perform. Every time I would try to sing, I would heel over in pain. To add insult to my injury, I was also given a high dose of steroids, consequently preventing me from singing for months due to the adverse effect the steroids could have on my vocal chords. To say I was feeling lost is an understatement. Imagine losing the one thing that is truly special and unique to you.
After about 8 months of not singing, and losing a lot of not only my weight but also myself, I finally got the permission to start singing again. I remember actually singing for the first time and being not sure what voice would come out. After singing out a few notes and hearing that my voice was still buried inside of me, I began to cry. I cried out of the sadness, but also the joy that emerged from all I had went through, and the knowledge that I still had the power to sing. It was from that moment I vowed to myself, that I would never allow myself to ever be in that state again. I would do whatever was necessary to keep myself both physically and mentally healthy.
It was from there that I began soul searching both on the inside and out.
I feel physically as strong as ever and remind myself where I was and to always keep pushing forward. I also surround myself with positivity. Keeping positive in all situations and surrounding myself with positive people is my key to true happiness. Always see the light.
I am now currently an advocate for the Crohns and Colitis foundation. I try to do what I can to raise awareness for this disease. Last summer, I dedicated proceeds from my Unrequited Love concert to the University of Miami Crohns and Colitis Clinic. I will also be participating in my second Crohns and Colitis Foundation walk, raising money for awareness and hopefully finding a cure.
As for my singing, I believe I am sounding better than ever. I take everything that I have been through and use it to fuel my performances and continue to grow.
Keep posted with my website for more upcoming performances and posts as my journey is always ongoing.
“I think music in itself is healing. It’s an explosive expression of humanity. It’s something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we’re from everyone loves music.” – Billy Joel